Alive

My eyes opened to red skies. The cold comforting black was gone. The ground below was scorching. I had to get up. My body ached. But I knew I had to get up..to run. From what?
I mustered up all my strength and with agonizing pain I lifted myself up. This ruin of a land spread for miles across. No one in sight. The landscape was just mountains and shriveled trees. I looked up to find the sun to guide me, but couldn't find it. Just a  pure, blood red sky. I looked down and I was bare foot. Suddenly I feel this overwhelming sensation that I'm not running from something, but towards it. An unknown quest.
I din't know what I was searching for but now I knew where to go. I started running..
The hot wind across my face din't stop me. I was running, like a madman. Nothing could stop me. With a steel reserve and no sense of time, I was sprinting across this vast canyon. The red skies now turned to burning crimson and then, to a wild purple. The wind became stronger, and colder.
The landscape had changed and the trees had disappeared and I felt the cold ground beneath my feet.

In front of me, was a huge mountain. A bare, grey stone. I knew that what I was searching for, was waiting on it.
I started climbing the rock and I saw this ethereal white light beyond it. I don't know how long I climbed for, but I finally could see the mountain top and the light  was a big moon on the horizon. I hurried up and reached the top.

Miles away, a man was standing near the edge of this flat ground. I yelled out for him but my voice was gone. I screamed hopelessly hoping that he could hear me. He was just looking up at the silent moon and I could see the tears on his face glisten in the moon light. Then, he turned around and looked at me, before he leaped off the edge.
With the final glance of his face, I had an epiphany, a sudden sense of fulfillment and never felt so alive before that moment, for he, was my savior, my salvation, my damnation. He was my nemesis. My reckoning. He was me...

"I end my quest. You fall into my arms at last" - Desert Plains (Judas Priest)

*Ends*

Death.

I was shivering against the cold breeze swaying across the dark, vast canyon... Like a nomad, I was walking with no sense of direction but each determined step after another, I kept moving. The sky had no stars. Just a big white moon. It was mocking at my solitude. No one to love. No one to hate. I kept walking. Suddenly I realize the soft sand beneath my feet disappeared and there was cold stone. No trees. No life anywhere around me. Serenity.

I came to the canyon edge. I could see a beautiful , grey river far across. I looked down and the black abyss looked promising. I looked up at the bluish silver sky for a moment and jumped. Tears started rolling down my cheeks. My entire past flashed across my mind.

All the ambitions and desires seemed so small. Everything I ever did, seemed like a mistake. I wanted a chance, just one chance, to do it all, and do it right.

Time came to a standstill. Suddenly there was a feeling like never before. Nirvana. I closed my eyes and let the feeling take over.

And then there was black.

'Look at the lost souls, they seem so black' - Testament

*Ends*

The horizon...

Yeah. I know. It's been quite sometime you saw my post!
I've been here and there you know.

Life's just too complicated .. damn it! Don't know what the heck is goin on these days. Is it just me or are things getting a little out of control.??
I haven't been able to sleep properly past few days. Too many thoughts, random dreams about even more random things, untimely sleep..
Today, it dawned to me that there is a place in your mind, which you do not want to go .. and I am standing on its horizon. Beyond it lies complete chaos. Well, do you want me to tell you what that is? - REALITY!
Yep., all this time, I have been living in a full-blown mental illusion. Every goddamn thing is too rosy here.. everyone is good.. things are fair. These are what I thought are right. Now,as i've got a glimpse of that godforsaken place in my mind, I'm just stuck to the horizon, which is worse. What happens when you realize that everything you know is spinning out of control but can't do anything about it! You can almost forget about forgetting it. This feeling is not just a mood swing or a result of a bad day. It's an eye-opener which I guess, everybody faces in life.
but here comes the silver lining. What did ya think.. I'll get myself depressed with all this shit? That ain't me. ;-]
This is the ultimate self-revelation.. Although, this realization is like a foot to the throat, it just makes us stronger. You begin to look at life differently, most importantly LIVE it differently...
Remember, the fight is worth it only if the scar is deeper.


Each dawn another curse, every breath a twisting blade...What will be left behind in the ashes of the wake? - Lamb of God

*Ends*