The pointy end

The corpses lie everywhere.. Left to be decayed. The army that once was. Now lies in a sea of blood..where they belong.

My cloak wisps in the wind as the man lies on his knees before me. His whimper is loud and liberating, as the cold of steel lies firm, on his sweat dripping neck. I hold my sword with a solemn grip, while I feel the sharp edge pushing against his soft skin...

This man had it coming. I lost everything to him. My world was shattered when he took away my love. Those eyes. They've left me marooned. Never to return. The first few months were the hardest. I cried every night. Soon, the tears dried out, only to leave vengeance behind. A cold-blooded revenge awaited. I found a purpose to live again. I knew that getting to him would be a tough task. I had to go through his army of assassins before I get to him. So I trained myself. Day and night.

Two years later
I was ready to meet my maker. So I set out on my redemption quest, ironclad and ready to kill. It was a long journey to his estate. Each determined step only reminded me of what awaited at the end. Death. I was going to kill them all. I knew that once I stepped foot in his territory, his guardians would descend upon me with all their might. The dark grey clouds above cast melancholy, almost signifying the day. I enter his gates. In the distance, our eyes meet, and I see a smile form upon his face summoning his guards. It's almost as if he knew.

There I was, alone, yielding a sword, and in front of me, was a army of hundred men. All of them, trained to kill. I fleeted towards them like a mountain lion. The battle was long and fierce, kill after kill, I moved forward. I savored each swing of the blade as I felt it thrust into warm bodies of these men fighting for a lost cause. One after another, they dropped dead. I emerged victorious, inflicted with deadly wounds but nothing bothered me anymore. The one-on-one awaited.
I saw his face aghast, as I walked slowly towards the deadly end.  He fell down to his knees, begging me to pardon him.

Blood red fury filled my eyes, my sword lifted and with one swift swing,  his head parted from his body.

I heaved a sigh and looked down upon my body riddled with cuts. I closed my eyes, as tears streaked across my face. I turned my sword around and pushed hard, as I felt the pointy end tear through my heart. The final cut.

The eyes. They return to me, at last...

*Ends*

Solitude..

He watches the sun go down. The crimson pink sky engulfs him into a mood of sorrow. The cold wind seems to soothe him for a moment but his mind instantly flickers to the past.

Lamentation
She stood there waiting for his answer. She knew the inevitable has happened and has to deal with the consequences. But she needs him. He knows how to save her from the impending gloom. But he's like a stone. He has to let her go. For her own good. For love.
There's nothing else to ponder about. He's gone over this moment a million times in his head; Never an answer.

With this one final step, he knows everything will fade away to memories...which he's ready to live with. To live, in regret, in pain, in ruin. But, is she ready?.. to live in this world without her guardian angel. A world cursed by dogmas and social conflicts. But he realized that long ago... You cannot be responsible of others in this cruel world. People survive with their own might. Live by their own will and die by it..
He's got his own life to be shaped, to be sculpted into this day dream, which he knows can only be done alone. And he's willing to give up everything for it. He's made his decision.

Her eyes still glimmer with hope. His reply would change their lives forever. It would throw them into a realm of torment, which both should be ready to endure. He thinks about it for the one last time and says.."Goodbye" and pulls her towards him for one last embrace. She's silenced by his answer. He knows that she's holding back. Gently, he moves away and kisses her forehead. She looks up with her innocent, tear-filled eyes. He tells himself.. "Don't cry", turns around and walks away.. to die regretfully..

The sun has gone down, but the memory lingers. And the scars, still run deep.
 

"In the rays of the sun, I am longing for the darkness" - (Closure) Opeth

*Ends*

Death.

I was shivering against the cold breeze swaying across the dark, vast canyon... Like a nomad, I was walking with no sense of direction but each determined step after another, I kept moving. The sky had no stars. Just a big white moon. It was mocking at my solitude. No one to love. No one to hate. I kept walking. Suddenly I realize the soft sand beneath my feet disappeared and there was cold stone. No trees. No life anywhere around me. Serenity.

I came to the canyon edge. I could see a beautiful , grey river far across. I looked down and the black abyss looked promising. I looked up at the bluish silver sky for a moment and jumped. Tears started rolling down my cheeks. My entire past flashed across my mind.

All the ambitions and desires seemed so small. Everything I ever did, seemed like a mistake. I wanted a chance, just one chance, to do it all, and do it right.

Time came to a standstill. Suddenly there was a feeling like never before. Nirvana. I closed my eyes and let the feeling take over.

And then there was black.

'Look at the lost souls, they seem so black' - Testament

*Ends*

The horizon...

Yeah. I know. It's been quite sometime you saw my post!
I've been here and there you know.

Life's just too complicated .. damn it! Don't know what the heck is goin on these days. Is it just me or are things getting a little out of control.??
I haven't been able to sleep properly past few days. Too many thoughts, random dreams about even more random things, untimely sleep..
Today, it dawned to me that there is a place in your mind, which you do not want to go .. and I am standing on its horizon. Beyond it lies complete chaos. Well, do you want me to tell you what that is? - REALITY!
Yep., all this time, I have been living in a full-blown mental illusion. Every goddamn thing is too rosy here.. everyone is good.. things are fair. These are what I thought are right. Now,as i've got a glimpse of that godforsaken place in my mind, I'm just stuck to the horizon, which is worse. What happens when you realize that everything you know is spinning out of control but can't do anything about it! You can almost forget about forgetting it. This feeling is not just a mood swing or a result of a bad day. It's an eye-opener which I guess, everybody faces in life.
but here comes the silver lining. What did ya think.. I'll get myself depressed with all this shit? That ain't me. ;-]
This is the ultimate self-revelation.. Although, this realization is like a foot to the throat, it just makes us stronger. You begin to look at life differently, most importantly LIVE it differently...
Remember, the fight is worth it only if the scar is deeper.


Each dawn another curse, every breath a twisting blade...What will be left behind in the ashes of the wake? - Lamb of God

*Ends*